October 5, 2003

[ Its only tears ]
posted @ 12:14 AM by fel


I finally found the song that auyongtc had stuck in his brain ...


It's only tears - Johnny Logan
[music and lyrics by Ralf-Rene Maue)

It's only tears we cry
Its only words that lie
If you're ever gonna leave me, better break my heart tonight
Its only tears we cry
When we know we have to say goodbye
If you're ever gonna leave me, better leave me tonight

Stop! You're gonna hurt me if you try to stay
Go! and find a new love, it's better that way
Stop! Looking at me before its too late
Don't you know our sorrow will be there tomorrow
and love is not a game we can play

It's only tears we cry
Its only words that lie
If you're ever gonna leave me, better break my heart tonight
Its only tears we cry
When we know we have to say goodbye
If you're ever gonna leave me, better leave me tonight

Stop! I don't believe you, I know you won't stay
Go! Find another who needs you that way
Stop! Chasing rainbows before its too late
Don't you know our sorrow will be there tomorrow
and love is not a game we can play

If you ever want me
If you ever need me yeah...
I'll be there
I swear

It's only tears we cry
Its only words that lie
If you're ever gonna leave me, better break my heart tonight
Its only tears we cry
When we know we have to say goodbye
If you're ever gonna leave me, better leave me tonight

October 5, 2003

[ Curry puffs ]
posted @ 06:32 AM by fel


Yum! My aunty decided to spend her one day off from work making curry puffs for us to gobble down... and they were delicious! I think I've already eaten 4 or 5 of them, and there doesn't seem to be many left!

Speaking of "food" and such, I've always wanted to (really) cook or bake something but I've never gotten around to it. People around me are always cooking for me so I've just never had the opportunity or need to. Maybe after uni is done (that is, after exams are through) I'll bake some cookies ... or perhaps, I'll get that recipe from Nadia for those scrumptious cupcakes...



Currently feeling: hungry

October 6, 2003

[ Sleepy sleepy ]
posted @ 01:05 AM by fel


I slept approximately 11 hours (or perhaps just under) and YET I still am feeling extremely tired. Its not mere laziness I'm feeling now, but aches whenever I move and wooziness in my head. I feel like I'm going to faint or collapse at any moment ...

I probably should go and see a doctor (maybe I'm missing essential minerals or vitamins, I know iron deficiency is common amongst females) but I can't help but feel that it may be a waste of my time if it turns out that its nothing more than the fact that I've been sleeping TOO much.


Currently feeling: exhausted

October 7, 2003

[ Still tired ]
posted @ 09:30 AM by fel


Two cups of coffee (skinny latte thank you very much) and a long afternoon nap YET I'm STILL tired...

I'm ready to drop into my bed and sleep, but I don't deserve to. Much too much work to do and I can't keep procrastinating. I guess all this work will keep my mind off other things tho ...
Currently listening to: Jay Chou's An Jing

Currently feeling: lonely

October 7, 2003

[ Hello! ]
posted @ 07:53 PM by fel


YAY! I figured out how to post to this shared journal

So what things are envisaged tol be "shared"?

October 7, 2003

[ Fine fine fine ]
posted @ 08:09 PM by fel


I'm doing not too bad for so little sleep. For some strange reason I kept working into the night until 4.30am ... and then decided it was time to retire to bed. However, I lay in my bed for at least 1/2 hour before eventually dropping off to sleep.

Then 4 and 1/2 hours later I wake up for no apparant reason, get myself out of bed, clean up and head downstairs to do some uni work.

However I was greeted by my sister who was obsessing over Jay Chou's MVs and then later VERY bad cover version of Mariah Carey's songs. Even more spine-chilling was when she started to sing along ........... *shudder*


Currently feeling: okay

October 9, 2003

[ This masquerade is getting older ]
posted @ 09:43 PM by fel


Time is just flying by, its almost the mid of October. Two and a half months until the end of 2003, and the beginning of yet another year, 2004.

2003 was supposed to be a "different" year, a year where I dropped my procrastinating habits, a year where studies and academia were my priority, a year where I focused on me. Any of these goals achieved? Not particularly...

I'm just about to give up. Yes, I know the end is so close ... but yet, it feels like its taking such a long time to get there. Imagine a train travelling on its predetermined route, but yet running out of steam once the target destination is so close in sight. Some may get to the finishing line full speed, but for me, I feel like I'm slowing down. Its not as if I have anything better to do, its just that I'm really hating this. I can't imagine studying another year unless I have a LONG break first.

Don't worry, I will make it through and I will do the best I possibly can. I just like to complain.
Currently listening to: Madonna's Take a Bow

Currently feeling: indescribable

October 9, 2003

[ I want to give ]
posted @ 10:29 PM by fel


Can we give some hugs too?

Any suggestions as to how we should go about doing this, same format as you Xiu?
Currently listening to: Cyndi Wang's Dang Ni

Currently feeling: busy

October 10, 2003

[ Oops! ]
posted @ 09:08 AM by fel


I just returned home from a nice dinner out with Shian (who has been in town for past week and returning back to Singapore tomorrow), Wen Jun and Michelle. A bit of a mix up dilemma at dinner tho; Mich and I were running a bit late (my fault, as usual) and arrived at Northbridge at around 7.15pm although we had fixed the time to be 7pm. We had arranged to go and try pizza from the "Pizza King" however, as we all weren't too sure of the name of the restaurant, Wen and Shian (who arrived on time) went to the restaurant NEXT DOOR (Romany's).

So, at around 7.15pm Mich and I entered into Nunzio's (the pizza king) thinking it was very strange that Wen or Shian hadn't arrived yet, because both of them are usually very punctual. Mich and I sat down, looked at the menu and then for some strange reason, I had a feeling that I should walk outside ... and I walked to the next restaurant, and there you have it - both Wen and Shian were sitting in there!!

So what were we to do? A slight dilemma? As Wen and Shian had already started sipping on the water and nibbling the bread, Mich and I were forced to embarrassingly apologise to the waitresses and leave.

Anyway, apart from this slight ... dilemma, we had a lovely catchup and dinner and later coffee at Dome.

But now I'm totally POOPED. I didn't have a particularly eventful day but still I feel so drained. In the past I would have totally partied to the max on a Friday night out ... but now, things have really changed. I rather have a nice sweet cup of coffee and chit chat the night away ...
Currently listening to: Tanya Chua's You Wen Ti

Currently feeling: tired

October 10, 2003

[ Want a job as a SMS CHAT OPERATOR? ]
posted @ 08:28 PM by fel


I receive job updates everyday in the email, and this one looked easy ... apart from the fact that you have to stay awake from midnight to 6am! EEK! But I thought there may be some people (insomniacs/game freaks/etc) around who don't sleep and would want to perhaps contemplate earning some $$$... take a look-see...

SMS Chat Operator

- Work from Home
- $15 per hour
- 30 to 35 hours per week

Casual SMS chat operators required to work midnight to 6am responding to text messages via the Internet.

To be considered for these roles, you must be computer literate, Internet savvy and have the use of a PC with Internet connection at home. You should also be outgoing, open-minded and be a good conversationalist.

Applications close Wednesday, 15 October 2003 and must be addressed to Belinda Dally, PO Box 357 Northbridge WA 6865 or email belinda@adultshop.com.

[Alternatively clicky here and click the 'Apply Now' button located at the bottom of the page]
Currently listening to: Morcheeba's The Sea

Currently feeling: working

October 10, 2003

[ Ready to give it all up ]
posted @ 11:40 PM by fel


I'm too naive. I thought that nothing like this would ever happen...

I know its not such a huge deal. Something about pictures on the public domain because public property ... even though these are MY PICTURES, my creations, they shouldn't be posted about ANYWHERE without my permission, RIGHT? BUT STILL ... I'm upset, annoyed and I feel violated.

I want to swear on the top of my lungs at you fucker. GO AND DIE, YOU STUPID ASSHOLE FUCKER WITH NO LIFE.
Currently listening to: Beanfield's The Season (Swag Mix)

Currently feeling: enraged

October 13, 2003

[ Quick update ]
posted @ 09:58 AM by fel


Good news, ALL pictures posted up by cheezels2 have now been deleted ... yes, including mine. I'm relieved ... but it did take 2 days before anything was done. Ah well, at least the admin wasn't as bad as I thought they were.

Still ... I've learnt a valuable lesson from this. And yes, for now, no more personal pictures will be going up for public viewing ... sorry.


Currently feeling: relieved

October 14, 2003

[ Unproductivity ]
posted @ 08:30 AM by fel


Tonight has been an awfully unproductive night. Heck, most of today has been unproductive period. Sorry interruption of thoughts, stomach rumble. Hmm I'm feeling kinda peckish now.

As I was saying, I've not been able to get much accomplished today. Even though I was back home around 2.30pm, the only thing I've managed to do is sort out all my procedure tutorials and organise my files etc. Its a real mess in my study, things are just not in order and when things are in order, I don't feel I want to do work. You know, something to do with needing a conducive studying environment.

There is just so so so MUCH to do. I'm panicking on the one hand because I know I can't afford to waste a minute, but on the other, I'm just so tired and I can't move (hang on, is that laziness? ) In all honesty, I don't have THAT many things to do - but the things that I do have to do are taking me a heck load of time.

Hmm... tell me again, why oh WHY am I doing corporate insolvency? Do I really hate myself that much? ~_~ Suffering, plain suffering...

Glad that I don't have school tomorrow until the evening. The week is over for me after tomorrow's evening class - Thursday's classes are cancelled because of the strike and I don't have classes on Friday. Great... more time to concentrate on studying and assignments. Whoopee, I am SO very looking forward to it. Now if only you could hear the sarcasm in those words...

Think I may head off to bed soon. I have had very little sleep over the last few days (surprisingly I've been up til the wee hours of the morning studying! ) and I think I'm beginning to get sick. I can feel my throat starting to hurt - NOT a good sign. I definitely could NOT afford to get sick at this time of the year... no no no!


Currently feeling: hungry

October 14, 2003

[ Welcome ]
posted @ 11:57 PM by fel

This is a stickied post.
Welcome to the tai-tai club blogring

Are you a tai-tai... or have aspirations to be one? Check out the definition and see whether you fit ...


TAI TAI
noun

1. A term used in Chinese circles for supreme wife (implying situation where a man is wealthy enough to have several "wives") but no longer strictly interpreted. Term now applies to citizens of the world with an Asian viewpoint who have bounds of time and money. A Tai Tai is a privileged lady of means.

2. Supreme of the Supreme is its literal translation. The term implies respect.



To qualify as a Tai Tai, one has to have lots of leisure time, lots of money to spend and lots of gossip to exchange. Business intelligence online in consumer goods and substantial assets.

Real Tai Tai's meet the following criteria:
1. A tremendous amount of leisure time
2. Lots of money to spend. A Tai Tai travels a lot
3. Concerned about status, social standing, and owning the 'latest in anything" that is remotely hot (ie: Pashminas. Fendi Baguette Bag....) God Forbid a Tai Tai be seen with last year's style!
4. Keenly interested in beauty upkeep (pedicures / manicures/ facials/ slimming treatments) Will stop at nothing to eradicate the tiniest sign of ageing.
5. Often associated with do-good charity works and community.
6. Discerning about the company she keeps. Must be in the right social circles
7. Well educated and global in perspective. Has lived on more than one continents. Experience and detail are what distinguishes a real tai tai from the wannabe's.
8. Buy in multiples and only the real thing. To get a better price and for their other homes in New York, London, Hong Kong, Vancouver and Singapore.

October 15, 2003

[ Article: Tai Tai or the Woman of Taste ]
posted @ 06:34 AM by fel


(Author: Karunanethy Kalaivani)
(Source)

Not quite the world's oldest profession but the profession, if it may be called such, of being a Tai Tai is not brand new either. Tai Tais, a Cantonese term, are wives or mistresses of wealthy businessmen, the occidental equivalent being ladies-of-leisure or, to put it less chivalrously, trophy wives. In the Asian context, they are a relatively recent phenomenon, arising from the East Asian economic resurgence of the past half-century, though they could trace their ancestry to the concubine traditions of Chinese history. Tai Tais are famed for their exquisitely groomed and attired persons made possible by their spouses' wealth. They often become fashion icons if they possess the requisite qualifications of taste, a model to be followed by other Tai Tais and Tai Tai wannabes. Being of widely disparate backgrounds, often there is little else other than their sartorial splendor to immediately distinguish them as a class. So it is very understandable that they seek to mould their identities on their consumption. However, as a consequence, it seems that they are themselves being classified as an object of taste by this ethos of using consumption to define the self. In this sense, Tai Tais have become commodities, objects of taste, which wealthy men acquire in order to classify their own tastes and by extrapolation, to establish their identities. As Collin Levey reports in her article for the Asian Wall Street Journal titled "Culture Clash: 21st Century Concubines" (W7), "a rich Hong Kong man is defined by the approved excesses of his Tai Tai and the youth of his mistress." The "approved excesses," socially legitimate economic behavior on the part of the Tai Tais, constitute the modus operandi of this ultimate branding enterprise.

(Read more?)

October 15, 2003

[ My first hug :) ]
posted @ 11:47 AM by fel


DELETED


Currently feeling: accomplished

October 15, 2003

[ Article: Posh & bags ]
posted @ 07:57 PM by fel


(author: Lionel Seah)
(source)

Now you can join the league of celebs like Kate Moss and Elton John, and get an image of yourself custom-made into a tote bag with the Be A Bag design line.

In her stylish bag are celebrity customers like Kate Moss, Elton John and Claudia Schiffer. But Anya Hindmarch's concept of customising totes with the carrier's self-selected pictures, called Be A Bag, has also bagged more unwelcome copycat versions than those for Louis Vuitton bags.

'It was quite frustrating at first because Be A Bag is a charity project,' the British handbag and accessory designer does admit initially, in an interview with Life! at the Four Seasons Hotel.
(Read more?)

October 16, 2003

[ Suggestion? ]
posted @ 10:51 PM by fel


Sharemation is a good place to share too And you can put a password on the files!

Lah lah lah.. anyone here?

October 17, 2003

[ Dear goodness ]
posted @ 01:07 AM by fel


Check out those butts!!

Man, that's some inspiration to go the gym!


Currently feeling: amazed

October 17, 2003

[ Oops! ]
posted @ 03:21 AM by fel


I just realised that I hadn't "allowed anonymous commenting", meaning that only tabulas users could post comments on any of my posts here. Ooops, I've rectified that now ... so if any of you non-tabulas users were reading and DYING to comment... well, now you can hehe...

But of course, I'd love it if you jumped on the tabulas bandwagon too ^^



Currently feeling: working

October 17, 2003

[ Another one ]
posted @ 03:32 AM by fel


Shin 信乐团 - Tian Gao Di Hou 天高地厚

(clicky here)

October 19, 2003

[ Article: On top of the world is Mr 'Tai-tai' ]
posted @ 03:05 AM by fel


(Author: Andrew Duffy)
(Date: August 4, 2002)
(source)

Ex-engineer John Hewitt says he could have spent his four years in Singapore doing a PhD or an MSc. Or he could have built bridges ordesigned web pages. Intead, he's played with his kids, made lots of toys, and he had the time of his life.

(Read more?)

October 19, 2003

[ Article: Taka mamas ]
posted @ 03:30 AM by fel


(Author: Tee Hun Ching)
(Date: 19 October 2003)
(source)

They are the Japanese versions of the taitai. These expat wives hub at malls like Takashimaya. They live in posh condominiums in Districts 9 and 10, sip tea at Royal Copenhagen Tea Lounge, and structure their lives around their children and husbands.

(Read more?)

October 19, 2003

[ Link: Sagwa - The Chinese Cat ]
posted @ 03:41 AM by fel


I stumbled across this cartoon, and what do you know one of the characters name is Tai-Tai.

Her character description;

Tai-Tai is the wife of The Foolish Magistrate and mother to their three daughters, Ba-Do, Luk-Do and Huang-Do. Together they make up the human family with whom Sagwa's family lives. Tai-Tai loves her family very much and often encourages her husband to do the right thing.

Sounds to me that someone was being lazy to think up a name! :p

October 19, 2003

[ YAY! ]
posted @ 05:23 AM by fel


First male to join the taitaiclub! Good stuff!

So what are you waiting for? Join today!!


Currently feeling: australian idol-ised

October 20, 2003

[ New userpics ]
posted @ 04:05 AM by fel


Woo woo ... I got new user pics

Kwon Sang Woo (KSW)... (whom I am currently obsessing over!)


... and me smiling (for once?)


btw, anyone want userpics? i can make some in no time at all ... ^^ I whipped up those two in a couple of mins




Currently feeling: smitten by KSW

October 20, 2003

[ Certainly not getting any easier ]
posted @ 06:38 AM by fel


I hate it ... I hate this very very much.

Enormous amounts of pressure and stress here, and not an inch of energy to fight it off. Normally I would be very fine, taking it one step at a time, but at this point in time... its taking an awful lot of effort to summon my "studying energy".

Well, it would be wrong to say I haven't done anything - I've been working quite solidly and I'm just wearing out very fast. (Perhaps I'm just not used to studying! -_-;; ) What, I think I need some herbal soup...

And to top it all off, I've developed a migraine (it was over Aus Idol, but it had NOTHING at all to do with the fact that it was Millsy's time to go). I'm feeling a tad naseous too ... and my eyes feel tired. Have I been staring at the computer screen too long?

THere is just too much to do within the next few weeks, its absolutely madness ... and on top of that, I'm supposed to study?

... all I can manage at this point in time a worn out sigh of unhappiness.


Currently feeling: sick

October 20, 2003

[ It's 3.32am ]
posted @ 12:32 PM by fel


and I'm still awake?

Sheesh. Its time for bed, I say. Giddy. Very much so.


Currently feeling: giddy

October 21, 2003

[ Indeed ]
posted @ 09:51 AM by fel


It was a lovely day apart from the evening where I was bogged down with endless amounts of work. Oh, and in between being VERY distracted with friendster. Yes, unfortunately I sucuumbed to its evil temptation ...

[btw, if you want to add me, visit my friendster page]

Well I should really be more specific and say that in fact lunch today was pretty much the highlight of the day ... in fact the week. Been pretty depressed and indundated with things to do, so today was a great day in that I had lunch with some friends (AC, SC, Mike, Mich) and continued on for coffee (AC, Mike, SC, Meina and Neil) ... it was just too nice of a day to be at all. Plus I really needed the fresh air.

Going to be a crazy week and a half.


Currently feeling: tired

October 23, 2003

[ Article: Wanna lose weight? Skip the gym ]
posted @ 08:08 AM by fel


(Author: Cris Prystay & Geoffrey A. Fowler)
(Source: WALL STREET JOURNAL)
(Date: 9 Oct 2003)

For Asian Women, Weight-Loss Rule 1 Is Skip the Gym; They Shun Hard-Body Look, Preferring Pills, Teas and Gels

Umera Chan recently paid $2,300 to a masseuse who promised to knead a few inches off her 116 pound, 5-foot-5 frame. She also pops diet pills with dinner. But the willowy size-two Singaporean wouldn't dream of going to the gym.

"We all want to be slimmer. But not muscular like Demi Moore," says Ms. Chan, a 28-year-old boutique manager. "I don't think that looks very nice."
(Read More?)

October 24, 2003

[ The usericons I made for AC ]
posted @ 01:04 AM by fel


I feel the need to show off ... haha

(whoo, see them here)

Actually more like I feel the need to embarrass AC. laaah di daah di dah.


Currently feeling: blah

October 25, 2003

[ Article: Ooh la la! Nicole Kidman = new face of Chanel ]
posted @ 04:38 AM by fel


(source)
(Date: 25 October 2003)

OSCAR-WINNING Australian actress Nicole Kidman will be the new face of the iconic fragrance Chanel No 5 in an advertising campaign created by her Moulin Rouge director Baz Luhrmann, Chanel announced yesterday.

Kidman was chosen "because she represents a unique standard of elegance and embodies the spirit and modernity of Chanel", the venerable French fashion house said in a statement.

The television commercials and print ads featuring the 36-year-old actress and produced by Luhrmann will be launched worldwide in the northern autumn next year.The terms and length of Kidman's contract with Chanel were not revealed.

(Read more?)

October 25, 2003

[ "Hub hub" ]
posted @ 05:22 AM by fel


Orite, I've set up a Sharemation account for hugs - only thing guys is that it's only 5 MB big. Neverminds

Btw, YES there is a password - check your tabulas message box for it. Otherwise, email me for it yeh?

Etta James - At Last

By the way, the previous ones (see below) are still there, but I'll be removing them soon. Perhaps, let me know whether you've d/l them yet ... and I'll remove them accordingly. (Also, let me know to this particular one as well, that would be good... ) Thanks ... and enjoy!

October 25, 2003

[ Time to get distracted ]
posted @ 05:41 AM by fel


I want a swimming suit. It has been too too long since I last bought one that wasn't for high school -__-;;

And so happens I surfed upon this... Seafolly new arrivals [slight prob - they are mainly all bikini's... and there is more chance of me being caught dead (as opposed to alive) in a bikini... ~_~ hrmmm]

Definitely be stupid of me not to buy a swimwear here in Australia before I leave right ... !!

Any one got any tips / advice / pointers / comments / anything at all regarding swimsuits? It honestly has been a good 15 or so years since I bought swimwear so ... yeh :\


Currently feeling: distracted

October 26, 2003

[ Goodbye finger nails ]
posted @ 01:12 AM by fel


For the first time in a very long time, I cut my finger nails off completely ... until the wrinkly pink bit shows, and there is no more white bit. I used to have to do it in high school regularly when I was still playing piano, but its been quite some time since I've done it... in fact, I can't even remember the last time I cut my nails this short.

Feels good. I played the piano, picking up some of my old songs that I haven't touched in a few years. Kind of rusty now tho ~_~ ... but I've resolved to start practising regularly, hopefully I can get back to the standard I once was at. I really want to take up a new instrument next year - perhaps violin, cello ... maybe I can teach myself to play the guitar!

Hmm actually it feels like I can type faster now without those blasted finger nails in the way!


Currently feeling: bored

October 28, 2003

[ Sick ]
posted @ 08:04 PM by fel


I don't know how this happened, but I'm now feeling like absolute utter crap. Flu symptoms, I don't know where the heck I picked it up from.

Woke up at 5.30am this morning hoping to get up and continue my assignments, but head was throbbing, all I could manage was to moan and toss about in my bed until ~6.45am when I finally fell back to sleep and continued to sleep until around 10am when I forced myself out of bed.

Don't feel any better. This is great, just perfect. Sigh.


Currently feeling: sick

October 29, 2003

[ Just as bad ]
posted @ 08:40 PM by fel


No improvement today. Horrible headache in the morning. Still got this blasted runny nose.

Last night was the worst though. Tried to sleep at 2.30am but ended up tossing and turning in bed for one hour before finally being able to doze off at 3.30am ... finally because I was just so damn tired. I hate that feeling of insomnia, so hard to sleep even though you feel exhausted.

Good news though; I got an extension for one of my assignments. I mean, that is quite good news although bad in the sense that the whole weekend will be burnt up by that assignment as opposed to having that time to study. Technically the beginning of SWOTVAC so ... time to do some serious studying for my final undergrad exams. You don't understand how GOOD it felt to type that.


Currently feeling: sick

October 30, 2003

[ Last lecture EVER ]
posted @ 01:34 AM by fel


This is exciting - I will be attending my last undergraduate lecture in half an hour's time. Although it is a 2 hour lecture conducted by Law School's most cynical lecturer, I'm still "looking forward" to it for the mere fact that this will be the last real lecture I'll be attending (apart from a stupid 1 hour revision session thingO on Tuesday during SWOTVAC for MDC).

I'm so amazingly overwhelmed that I think I'm going to cry.


Currently feeling: excited

October 30, 2003

[ Laaaaaaah ]
posted @ 01:45 AM by fel


Alborada del Gracioso from Miroirs - Maurice Ravel

... played by yours truly

[nb. pretty big file ~ 4.39MB]